Been A While

First of all I hope everyone had a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. It wasn't the best Holiday season for me. I've been kind of bummed since I graduated.... being back home, trying to work out the 'work' situation and of course having braces again :) The braces aren't so bad except they still make me feel super self conscience when it comes to boys. I just feel like relationships aren't going to happen while I'm going through this process. It's unfortunate because I'm so ready to start dating again but yeahhh it is what it is. I'm also really starting to freak out about recovery time. I know it differs person to person but I ran in to someone today and their sister had gone through jaw surgery and she told me it took her 10 years until everything felt okay again. 10 years!!! WTF, like seriously? Maybe she had a more serious surgery than what I'm having but it really freaked me out. I start a new job in 2 weeks. I told them about my surgery and that I would need to take some time off but that it shouldn't be a problem. Honestly I totally sugar-coated it though because I have NO IDEA how much time I will need to take off. For those of you out there going through a similar surgery (upper and lower to correct over bite/open bite) do you know much time you will need before you can go outside and be a more or less normal person? My surgery is suppose to happen sometime in September....but I feel kind of lost. I haven't seen my actual orthodontist since I went in to meet with him at the beginning and get my original scans. Every time I go in for a tune up they have some other guy working on me. He's really nice and in part I don't mind but, and I know he's just following my ortho's plan for me but, I dunno, I'd like to see him every once in a while ya know? I finally asked last time I was in if I should be talking to my surgeon, "do I need to go in for a check up?" They told me no. They said we were on schedule and that there was no need to talk to my surgeon until we were closer to the actual surgery date- also he said that they would take care of everything. I'm like okayyy, that's nice but I'd really love to be included. How is everyone else feeling about their status? Anyone else experiencing a lack of communication like myself? I hope everything is going well for everyone and if anyone has any advice please throw it my way!

A bad time to look young

Time for an update. I go in for my third tune up next week. Things are moving along. Before I know it I'll be in surgery. I'm ready for it but the whole thing stresses me out. This is just a horrible time to be going through all this, but I choose to, so I guess I shouldn't complain. I just started teaching and looking so young has really made it hard to get respect from the kiddos. I just look so young, they don't see me as an adult, a teacher. I'm working on it. Also, whatever jobs I get, yes I'm still looking, will have to be put on hold pretty soon. I don't know how long I'll be out of commission after the surgery. For everyone out there who has gone through this how much time did you have to take off work? I would just hate to work so hard to find a steady job now only to get fired because in a few months I'll be under the knife. How have you guys dealt with this? Hope everyone is well. It might snow here tomorrow. Looking forward to it.

Things can get weirder. They will get weirder.

Eh kind of a shitty day.

Started off okay though. I went and got my teeth cleaned which was awesome because my dentist showed me all this stuff I can use to help keep my teeth clean and extra shinny while I am with braces. I have had issues with staining. Even though I brush at least twice day and am thorough, I seem to have to be working much harder to keep my teeth clean. Wise words from anyone?

Then later in the day I had my acting class which I was going to have to leave early for because of this audition I had downtown. Class was shitty. I was there for 2 whole hours before I was able to read anything for the teacher. My partner got there super late. The scene is great for me but not right for any guy in the class. She says she will have to bring someone in to read it with me. Greattt. I don't like things being unresolved. There's more drama but it probably wouldn't make sense, not knowing all the details.

Then on to my audition which I totally blew! Seriously, bad. But hey, gotta forgive myself right? Mistakes will be made. Not all auditions can be perfect. It's actually probably healthy to blow one every now and then. haha though, what am I saying?! *Sigh* Just trying to make myself feel better.

WhyWhyWhy?!!?!

So I have a B.A. in Theatre and now here I am, not being able to get my mind off journalism. What an inconvenient time to decide I want to do something completely different with my life. Don't get me wrong. I love acting and I want to make something of it. I do. But what if I can't make a career out of it? What's my back up? Writing! I really can't think of anything else. How do I make it happen though? I already got turned down by freaking Demand Studios. They say they don't have a job for me but I know they are hiring! I need advice. Any writers out there? How do I make this happen? Any suggestions? I would love to freelance, apply for internships, anything! It's just kind of hard without the background.
On another note, I have my first adjustment appointment for my braces tomorrow. Things are really moving along. My lower teeth are already straight. So hard to believe. Before I know it I'll be in surgery and wow will that be weird.
Looking at condos right now. Definitely planning on staying in town for a while.

Hey How's it going....I can play a really good 12 year old!!!

The showcase class starts today! What a week. First I get sick, not fun, then I find out I have a matter of days to get my portfolio together to be ready for the showcase class. I got new headshots on Friday, me with my smiley brace face. In some of the pictures I look like I'm 12 haha. I'm excited though. This class will hopefully get me signed with an agency in town and I can start booking some jobs! I would love to build up my resume over the next year and a half since I have to be here for the jaw surgery, then I can make my move back to sunny California. Oh how I miss it. Or maybe I'll head to New York?! Who know's. I'm just excited to be doing SOMETHING! Still looking into a day job though.....

Loose

So my teeth are definitely moving now which is cool but my teeth feel loose. Has anyone else experienced this? I'm pretty sure I was able to wiggle a couple, not like a lot or anything, but that's how loose they seem! Maybe I'm just being paranoid but thought I would take to the blog and ask. Hope everyone is well!

Braces Shmaces

Ok. So I had my acting class tonight and I was super nervous about acting with braces. Sounds silly I know. It just sucks that I was finally finding my grove, letting go of all that self conscious shit that college left me with and now here I am, having another thing to be self conscious about. Well I should have checked all my nerves at the door because it went fine! The scene went great and my teacher even said braces work for me. Ya, I look like I'm about 12, but as long as it's not turning me into an awkward actor then I'm okay. 

Also, I know I've only had them on like a week but I figured I would start noticing changes by now. Only because my ortho told me shifting would happen like right away. Maybe it's so gradual I can't tell. I can't wait till my bottom teeth are straightened out though. I have a bit of crowding at the moment. 

Also, if anyone can give me some tips on how to floss with braces that would be great! Seriously, not that easy. 

Off to Taos tomorrow. Back just in time for ACL. Can't wait.