A bad time to look young

Time for an update. I go in for my third tune up next week. Things are moving along. Before I know it I'll be in surgery. I'm ready for it but the whole thing stresses me out. This is just a horrible time to be going through all this, but I choose to, so I guess I shouldn't complain. I just started teaching and looking so young has really made it hard to get respect from the kiddos. I just look so young, they don't see me as an adult, a teacher. I'm working on it. Also, whatever jobs I get, yes I'm still looking, will have to be put on hold pretty soon. I don't know how long I'll be out of commission after the surgery. For everyone out there who has gone through this how much time did you have to take off work? I would just hate to work so hard to find a steady job now only to get fired because in a few months I'll be under the knife. How have you guys dealt with this? Hope everyone is well. It might snow here tomorrow. Looking forward to it.

Things can get weirder. They will get weirder.

Eh kind of a shitty day.

Started off okay though. I went and got my teeth cleaned which was awesome because my dentist showed me all this stuff I can use to help keep my teeth clean and extra shinny while I am with braces. I have had issues with staining. Even though I brush at least twice day and am thorough, I seem to have to be working much harder to keep my teeth clean. Wise words from anyone?

Then later in the day I had my acting class which I was going to have to leave early for because of this audition I had downtown. Class was shitty. I was there for 2 whole hours before I was able to read anything for the teacher. My partner got there super late. The scene is great for me but not right for any guy in the class. She says she will have to bring someone in to read it with me. Greattt. I don't like things being unresolved. There's more drama but it probably wouldn't make sense, not knowing all the details.

Then on to my audition which I totally blew! Seriously, bad. But hey, gotta forgive myself right? Mistakes will be made. Not all auditions can be perfect. It's actually probably healthy to blow one every now and then. haha though, what am I saying?! *Sigh* Just trying to make myself feel better.

WhyWhyWhy?!!?!

So I have a B.A. in Theatre and now here I am, not being able to get my mind off journalism. What an inconvenient time to decide I want to do something completely different with my life. Don't get me wrong. I love acting and I want to make something of it. I do. But what if I can't make a career out of it? What's my back up? Writing! I really can't think of anything else. How do I make it happen though? I already got turned down by freaking Demand Studios. They say they don't have a job for me but I know they are hiring! I need advice. Any writers out there? How do I make this happen? Any suggestions? I would love to freelance, apply for internships, anything! It's just kind of hard without the background.
On another note, I have my first adjustment appointment for my braces tomorrow. Things are really moving along. My lower teeth are already straight. So hard to believe. Before I know it I'll be in surgery and wow will that be weird.
Looking at condos right now. Definitely planning on staying in town for a while.

Hey How's it going....I can play a really good 12 year old!!!

The showcase class starts today! What a week. First I get sick, not fun, then I find out I have a matter of days to get my portfolio together to be ready for the showcase class. I got new headshots on Friday, me with my smiley brace face. In some of the pictures I look like I'm 12 haha. I'm excited though. This class will hopefully get me signed with an agency in town and I can start booking some jobs! I would love to build up my resume over the next year and a half since I have to be here for the jaw surgery, then I can make my move back to sunny California. Oh how I miss it. Or maybe I'll head to New York?! Who know's. I'm just excited to be doing SOMETHING! Still looking into a day job though.....

Loose

So my teeth are definitely moving now which is cool but my teeth feel loose. Has anyone else experienced this? I'm pretty sure I was able to wiggle a couple, not like a lot or anything, but that's how loose they seem! Maybe I'm just being paranoid but thought I would take to the blog and ask. Hope everyone is well!

Braces Shmaces

Ok. So I had my acting class tonight and I was super nervous about acting with braces. Sounds silly I know. It just sucks that I was finally finding my grove, letting go of all that self conscious shit that college left me with and now here I am, having another thing to be self conscious about. Well I should have checked all my nerves at the door because it went fine! The scene went great and my teacher even said braces work for me. Ya, I look like I'm about 12, but as long as it's not turning me into an awkward actor then I'm okay. 

Also, I know I've only had them on like a week but I figured I would start noticing changes by now. Only because my ortho told me shifting would happen like right away. Maybe it's so gradual I can't tell. I can't wait till my bottom teeth are straightened out though. I have a bit of crowding at the moment. 

Also, if anyone can give me some tips on how to floss with braces that would be great! Seriously, not that easy. 

Off to Taos tomorrow. Back just in time for ACL. Can't wait. 

Things are changing

Well, I've started applying for jobs. I've decided I would really love to work for an organization that promotes the well being and health of women! I applied at Austin Woman Magazine but I'm still waiting to hear. Cross your fingers for me! 

Well being back in my parent's house is weird. They moved here when I was a soph in high school so it's hard to feel really attached to it. I couldn't bring myself to sleep in my old room though. It holds all these memories of when I was younger. It's weird. I know I was that girl, and that girl is my past, making up who I am now, but in a way I don't know her at all. So I have moved into my sister's old room. It needs some serious re-decorating but, I'm up for the challenge. I started going through all my old stuff tonight. Of course this required Champagne. So in my Champagne stupor I kept coming across old love letters, pictures, and old gifts. How can one person collect this much stuff??? I'm only 22! I can never bring myself to give anything away though. I've been thinking of taking some of my old things and turning them into some kind of art project. I guess it would be a way of taking my past into my present. I dunno. I just don't want all this stuff to end up in the attic. 

Listening to Richie Havens right now and wishing I had been at Woodstock. I'll probably dream about that tonight. 

Anyway, braces are still on and I'm starting to get used to them. Here I am starting over back home, getting to know my city again, making new friends.....this would be so much easier without braces. But I wanted this! I was just thinking today that by my 24th birthday I will have my braces off and my new smile and profile! Who knows what life will be like in a year and a half. 

Right now things are changing. I'm just trying to stay positive. 

Pictures

Here are a few pictures showing off my smile front/profile. You can see how I push my lower jaw forward in order to smile (for my teeth to touch). I hate my profile. I can't wait for the surgery to correct it! 

So It Starts

Well things are finally underway! I got my braces on today and it's a total flashback to middle school. I've been wanting this for so long and even though I know I need the surgery it kind of sucks having to have braces again. At least it's only the next year and half of my life. It is turning out to be quite pricey though. My mom said it's basically like another year of college. Fun. As soon as I get a job I will start helping out, paying them back. I'm so grateful that they are willing to help me out. Our insurance really sucks so they won't cover the surgery even though it's clear to my orthodontist and my surgeon that I need it. Maybe things will be better with Obama's new healthcare plan. I couldn't wait though! 

Hopefully by next July-Aug I will be having the surgery. I will be getting surgery done on my lower jaw and upper jaw. My lower jaw will be moved forward and my upper jaw moved up. This will fix my open bite! Also right now I can not comfortably close my mouth without using facial muscles which might mean I also need a genioplasty, but this will most likely be assessed after the jaw surgery. 

I go back to my orthodontist in 7 weeks so until then! Hopefully I get used to these braces.....