It hits me in waves. I've read on the blogs that this can happen. For me it comes out of the frustration of not being able to live the life I was living before the surgery. I can't go out like I was used to. I can't eat like I used to. I can't talk like I used to. I feel completely helpless in every aspect of my life. I know this feeling doesn't last forever and everyone keeps telling me how brave I am to go through this, but tonight I don't feel brave. I feel lonely, frustrated, and scared. I just really need these next few weeks to fly by.
How do you get through these bad days? How do you keep smiling? How do you remind yourself that at the end of the day "This is totally worth it."